蓝蓝的。。。

躺在蓝蓝的床，对着蓝蓝的荧幕，写着蓝蓝的心情。。。

怎么这几天的我总觉得什么都是蓝蓝的。。。

很讨厌这样的感觉！！！

很讨厌明明是不开心但还是得假装开心的我。。。

很讨厌被骂了但还是得挤出笑容假装没事的我。。。

很讨厌总是被心软打败的我。。。

很讨厌明明是在意但却装作若无其事的我。。。

很讨厌爱管闲事而最终却苦了自己的我。。。

很讨厌。。。很讨厌。。。这样的我！

这还是我吗？

那热爱自由和以快乐为人生目标的我迷路了吗？

I'm sick...

I'm SICK... HOMESICK... what kind of medicine can cure it?

I miss my home, family and friends in KL so much...

It had been long time I do not have this kind of feeling since I came to work in Singapore.

This feeling is really strong till I nearly bought a ticket and back KL again on Friday (29 Jan 10) after work.

Yes... It's AGAIN as I just back in Singapore from KL (after Hong Kong trip) on Wed (27 Jan 10) night.

This feeling become even more stronger after I had a chat with my dear mum.

My dear brother text me in the MSN... said... 'Hei, mum called u just now but u didn't answer the call. Please call back, k?'

'Why call me at this hour? It's already almost 12 mid night and normally I'll call back on Sat.' I'm thinking.

Then I just reply him 'Ok, I'll call back after I taking bath, k?'

In the end, I get a really surprised and touching phone call that I ever have.

'祝你生日快乐。。。Happy birthday to you... Happy birthday to you ~~~'

Honestly, at the time I heard this I'm thinking... What happen? Today is not my birthday!!!

'今天不是我的生日。你有没搞错？' I ask my mum.

‘今天是你的农历生日！你忘记了？’My mum told me.

Then I just realize... Every year of this day my mum will cook me 2 hard boiled eggs and mee sua...

But this year no eggs... no mee sua... and I had totally forget it...

But... my dear mum still remember it... and she sing me birthday song...

My tears almost dropped... the tears of happy, surprised and touching...

Mum, dad and brothers, I miss you all so much!!!

My dear friends in KL... I miss you guy so much too!!!

Looking forward to meet you all during the coming CNY!!!

13 days more to go...